Im sitting down on the balcony, typing slowly trying to piece my thoughts together. I've spent many hours admiring the view from up here, and it just seems so serene, i lose myself ever so often in my train of thoughts...
I'm feeling things i wish i didnt feel right now, maybe its cause i think too much already. But it just lingers on in my mind. When i go shopping, i only focus on things you would like. I wish someone would just tell me how i should feel... Everytime i zoom back into reality i feel so mentally exhausted. I keep asking myself, Do i dare to take that leap again? Will you be there to catch me? You got this hold over me, its a kinda bittersweet feeling, it confuses me and yet it brings a smile to my face whenever i think of you. ahh hell... i think thats enough for the night. tomorrows a new day!

What happens if i leap and fall? i dont wanna know.