I came to you for answers
I left confused
Cause you moved me and you promised
you wouldn't let go
Now I need you and I want you to know

I'm stepping out today
Pushed all the demons away..

why do i even bother.
its nonsense.
Im still living in my dream
Its about time i wake up.

Day 2 of the new year...
Lost money gambling on day 1 at relatives house and at desmonds house...*byebye money*
there goes my hongbao money from day 1.
Day 2 was spent sleeping at home thru the morning and into the afternoon...
And then the big family gathering at Singapore Recreation clubs restaurant.
As usual met the entire family... distant cousins uncles whom i dont know etc etc.
collected like 5 hongbaos only though... surprising. should have hung around all the uncles and aunties more... Spent the evening pigging out over dinner, chatting with my cousins, then was the fireworks at 9 followed by pool ( thrashed by my cousin), night cycling and stay over at my cousin's new house. that about sums up both days....
its time is started studying!

The only time i ever felt happy being alone.

Well the new years here, didnt enjoy today though. Had stuff on my mind to sort out...
And just when i thought that this would be the day to get some rest, the maid had to run away... jeez. spent half the day finding her... and the other half preparing for the reunion dinner... Some kind of rest day huh.

Rushed through dinner went to the park for a walk. fell asleep while lying on the bench looking at the stars. Woke up went home and just chilled in my room with the music blasting. Tomorrow's visiting day! lets hope there will be more enthusiasm in my mood...
Maybe its cause of the 2 papers i have left. Mbio and Bpharm... Hope i can get into the studying mood quickly after the short break.

When i was in the park i thought of a couple of things. I thought of what happened to me the past year or so, I thought of what could have been... and i just stopped, cause i couldnt carry on any longer..

Time heals all wounds ya?
haha. hope its true...

Friday DDCT's over! finally the weekends here! Chinese New Years jsut around the corner... phew finally a breather. Time to catch up on sleep! heehee. Wanted to pick up my dad from the airport today, but due to certain commitments i couldnt make it... but its okay i joined him for some shopping in the evening followed by supper at toa pa yoh. The company loaned him some toyota thats gotta be like at least 10 years old? and thats AT LEAST! haha. vintage i would say.
Sheesh. wonder whats going on tomorrow.

for now its just me and the music...

Well.. v-days's over!

Mct's over! It sucked dont ask. =(
DDCT is tomorrow... cant wait to take a short break during the new year... phew... a breather to compose myself. and have a lil fun and collect some money =D!
Oh man i still have 1 chapter left to thoroughly study and chapter 6 of mct log book... argh i got this urge to smash the laptop again! been having this weird tendency for a few days already! haha. alright back to studyin.

Love is in the air all around me....
its kind of interesting to be the one standing on the sidelines watching for once...

Weekend spent studying mct. preparing for the presentation tomorrow!
Spent saturday night at desmonds house, jeremy was there too... Usual stuff that we do always.. but the main point of going over was just to watch soccer! =D haha.

Listening to the right music can just lift my mood! Im like feeling high at the moment! Must be the music plus the m&m's giving a sugar rush! Stomach's growling now... gonna supper real soon with elson. time to do some talking and crapping with him again!

Back from Happy sessions at east coast park with ain and xuefang! we sat at the break water after dinner at parkway! and just chilled talked ran from cockroaches and rats! but overall we talked quite abit. stared at the stars. and the two of them mistook a plane for some light house.... like OMG. i was like thats so obviously a plane... Doh!
Ate brownie at coffee bean, before taking 43 with xf back home. Thank goodness the 317 came just on time. i was dead tired shit. yawn... its study time tomorrow!

I tried to pluck a star from the sky for you..
If i get it will i be able to pass it to you?

i was sent an email asking me to check out this book on a website...
Its called "i believe you" by a local author. Its a love story set in singapore among a jc couple. its kinda interesting though you got to order the book before u get to read the ending u get to read 17 chaps for free. haha its not bad. caught my attention and got me a lil emo. heres the link if you're interested! http://www.goodybooks.com/ibelieveyou.htm

This few days have been kinda hectic. irregular sleeping patterns, studying, gambling and emoing dont make a good cocktail! =X
practically knocked out the moment i touched the bed yesterday. Out cold for 12 hours, till bout 4 am and couldnt get back to sleep... so listened to some music and doodled.
Mct lecture was okay, kinda rush, but at least i managed to catch the gist of it! crashed retail lecture that! jem couldn wake up so i kinda took his place there!
I tell you! the retail teacher is sooooo.... draggy! thank god i dont actually take her lessons! ill just faint. Rejoiced when their lecture was finally over!
Breakfast at mac's with yy, mart, ain, xf and pearlyne! its been awhile since i had breakfast there! then desmond fetched us to kovan to take MRT to jems house for another gambling session. Another 7 hours plus of fun, laughter and cursing. Then it was dinner at the coffee shop! then home sweet home.

For some strange reason.
Its you im thinking about.
what now?

Its 1235, i jsut came back from supper and chatting with elson.
Its great to just sit and talk once in awhile, you get to clear your mind. Get advice, speak your mind, and just converse with another human being...
Now his in my room talking to his "darling" *damn im sooooo jealous*
while im sitting at my cubicle listening to music and trying to read up on mbio. Get ready for tomorrows quiz! looks like im gonna be like a walking zombie tomorrow! looking forward to getting some sleep! hehe.
My dad's gone back to vietnam and mum's coming back tomorrow to prepare for the new year, means im gonna have a good long break from house hold duty! =)
Its a real tiring job... haha. but i think i coped really well ^^
Alright time to get back to studying. I'll write back soon!

how do we stop gambling!?
*ponder*
Study study study....

3rd night in a row of mahjong! we raised the stakes yesterday! thank goodness didnt lose money. poor des was the biggest loser. therefore i paid for his breakfast at some 24 hour prata shop. went home and took a nice long sleep. tiredness is killing me.

1st post of feb! what a way to start the month. rushing projects studying for tests. but 1 month from now it'll all be over... so would be chinese new year though... sigh. gotta stop gambling and start mugging! we're seriously becomming addicts here! so no more till after exams. Just came back from 1 such session at jeremy's house. Phew dead beat.
Gonna crash for the whole day now. wake up and talk to my dad! he's back! lol. Time to get my $$. i can picture my wallet swelling up in size!!! mwahahha. then its shop shop shop!
alright gonna go sleep now. eyes are half closing.... night all! =)