Rahhh!!! back from the national stadium! Singapore 2 Thailand 1!!!
Yay! so skipped school today to rest longer at home. Headed to mart's house around 2pm, watched a new series called "heroes" and episode 15 of prison break! dinner at Simpang before heading over to the national stadium. hell it was crowded... Handphone networks were screwy and it was almost impossible to get through to anyone! haha. thank god alex found us. The other guys went in first while i waited for jeremy to arrive! Watched the first 35 mins from a small opening in the stadium. Heard the cheers when singapore scored! whoop! Of course me being so patriotic and stuff was cheering for Singapore, plus the fact that i put 10 on singapore to win.
Then during the 2nd half the thai's equalised and then the vulgarities started to fly.. It was F*** this !$#%@ that. the heat of the moment was really getting to the fans! then during the last 10 mins singapore had a penalty! damn thais refused to carry on with the game. they just stopped playing... boo's and what not from the crowd!
In the end after 15 mins of pacifying they continued. What babies! *pfft*
Decided to video tape the penalty kick after that! the stadium erupted when the goal was scored! RAHHHH!!!! I was back on track to earning money and watching singapore win again! haha. I wanted to review the vids but i realised i didnt save it...... so in the end i got the vids from alex and yong yang! Yay!
spent 30 mins trying to find jems car after that. Before heading to 85 for supper... not gonna sleep tonight so yea, gotta find something to do... night people

wahh! what a day! i havent registered my damn mc yet and ive got to do it by thursday. shit. plus i got to study for the ddct quiz which was supposedly a killer. ive got no mood to do anything right at the moment. school is just getting sucky. with more projects, more workload and the upcoming term tests and exams coming up.
Had the interview today, probably screwed up BIGGG time by being late and shit. Kinda ruined my whole damn day after that. Bpharm lecture during which i kept falling asleep, nodding off as ms hor droned on and on about drugs...
another gambling session at my house... sigh... lets not talk bout it ;P

Yikes i cant get to sleep again. plus ive got to wake up in about 5 hours time. I thought that with last week over, i would be able to return to 6 hours of sleep min. a night. apparently now huh. with interview tomorrow, Mct log book yet to be finished, and loads of other things to be completed, it all comes down to rushing last minute again...

Tomorrows gonna be a long day in school... Hope the interview goes well =X.

We all got choices.

Went for the check up today. Doc diagnosed it as a bacterial infection. haha.
you wouldn't know how relieved i am to hear that...skipped school but heard DDCT quiz was a killer. haha. time to prepare for interview and stuff ive got so much shit due this 2 weeks. damn.

Im going for a check up tomorrow morning.
hope everything is alright....

Basket. i just heard the news. Jem and Des got fined 70 each for parking at my house that night.
Must be my 2 new fucking neighbours opposite the road. No space to park their own cars then call Tp to fine them. I seriously dont understand why they dont park in their own houses, and its private property anyways why should they get fined!? retarded really.

Too mr. neighbour you better watch your fucking car. next time i see it behind my car. im gonna call the traffic police.
Oh ya i forgot to mention i think you're the biggest asshole in the world.

4 guys on a zebra! haha. me,jeremy, yongyang and martin!

What a week it has been... Didnt sleep during the night from monday to friday! haha. Projects and quizes just suck.

Studied so damn hard for MCT on thursday night only to find the paper ridiculously easy. Felt cheated, went home after DDCT interview to try and get some sleep before night safari!
In the end only managed to nap for an hour.. zzz.
Dinner at Serangoon Garden Hawker Centre before night safari. When we got to the night safari it started to rain, but we enjoyed walking in the rain and looking at animals. Though our legs got tired after awhile. Got drenched from head to toe, so obviously wasnt feeling very happy bout it. Then in some bat enclosure, some dumb people with umbrellas, stopped to look at bats, causing a damn jam cause they occupied the whole damn walk way. I told them to get a move on. it only bats come on. not like some alien species.... jeez. inconsiderate really.
Once we got to the entrance of the place, we had a hard time deciding where to go. In the end it was my house, i gave the girls a tour since it was their first time and opened a bottle of vodka for ain. When the guys came over it was all about gambling again... Sigh we gambled till the wee hours of the morning again.. *No more till after exams!*

Spent the whole saturday afternoon sleeping... what a waste...

whoever said it was easy....
you dunno what you're talking about.

I FEEL LIKE SHIT!!!!
I never thought i'll feel this way but im sorry i do.
I'll deal with it my way.
Things really come at the worst of times dont they!?
screw the damn world....

okae. got that off my chest. =)
back to DDCT project.

3 o clock now.. cant sleep again as usual.... but now im starving. but theres no food to eat at home.. booohooo.

thelongwalksonmoonlightbeach

I'm glad you're happy...

Hmmmm today attended school for ddct tutorial, bpharm lecture and ddct lecture. as expected the day passed by real fast with us lunching over at engine 2. Was supposed to go to popeye's but too bad xf didnt go so not much point in me going either... accompanied martin to register for his driving at ubi centre! that place is so ulu please.... and thanks to my excellent sense of direction i guided martin to the bus stop and found my own way home! mwahaha. damn proud of myself...

need to get some sleep or ill drop dead damn soon.

Short day in school. lecture lab tut. ended at 1. went to desmonds house for mahjong. and i lost money basket. Thank god i won back during Singapore vs Indonesia...

Who would have thought folding paper cranes can make me feel so at ease? haha.
So today went for morning lecture late... expected. seeing i only had 3 hours of sleep. sheez.
we had kinda long breaks today so folding paper cranes for the needy! weee!
went for mock csas interview, and it went kinda well counting i didnt prepare anything....
Went for World Of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade opening day! omg man! the amount of people there... incredible. met up with some old guildies. and new ones. kinda fun all the activities going on... made me feel like picking wow up again. but we'll see how in the near future...
chill out session at TCC followed by dinner at chompchomp. happy birthday medwin!!! alright gonna do bpharm now. ciao!

phew back from 5 crazy hours of driving. freaking tired thank god theres no tutorial tomorrow. means i can go to school at 11 plus! yay!
so sorry jem went all the way to your house in the end im too tired to eat with u... argh.. cant help it 5 hrs u know! haha. yea

My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to...
be happy for me....

A new week! lets hope for the best!
and theres no other better way to start it off!
Three! yes! THREE! driving lessons in a row after school tomorrow! time to go vroom vrooom....

And I've been running to no where...
And I feel somethings getting clearer....

Happy 19th Birthday Buddy!

Long day in school yesterday! was seriously contemplating not going for MCT lecture...
but my hardworking side urged me up from bed... yawn
so had the damn lecture and had a lil breakfast at itas with roy, maine and xf. haha everyone was looking forward to spending the evening at the night safari. But alas the weather had other plans for us. Raining drizzling non stop. so damn irritating...
So during lunch time watched a couple of people i knew singing live outside the library. Again the weather had to screw it up sigh.
And yeah now i have a lueblack on my arm thanks to that charmaine... damn that girl packs a mean pinch.
After mbio lecture xf accompanied the guys to marts house! we waited for ain to meet us for dinner, so as usual the guys got down to gambling etc. while the poor girl just sat and watched haha. So dinner at bedok corner. Had Charkwaytiao and some satay...
Went for a drink at Georges at Siglap. Poor Mart had to drink lychee martini! haha i ordered the same drink as roy but we got two totally different drinks in the end. hmmm... after that my eyes started giving me hell damn contacts.
Mahjong session at mart's house followed by poker then breakfast then home. thank goodness i didnt lose. haha. time for more sleep now... yawn

changed the song. its rascal flatts my wish. nice song. enjoy!

Any chain is freely worn, but in most cases we are trapped by them because we allow it to.

I feel vulnerable...
I'm scared...
I hang on to everyword like theres a hidden meaning.

Long tiring day today in school. 2 more to come before the weekends come again.

You said i could turn to you if i needed someone. But you misunderstood my intentions by just an innocent phone call. what makes you think that you're right? that you know whats going on in my head.

you think you know me, but do you really?

It isnt about finding the perfect person....
Its about seeing an imperfect person perfectly....

how true....

Im suffering from a bad case of insomnia... been tossing and turning for the past 3 hours. and though im freaking tired. i still cant get any sleep. and tomorrows a long day.. sigh..

Maybe the its the thoughts that are running wild in my head at the moment...

Bah.

I seem really out of focus nowadays again. Cant really concentrate on anything atm... argh!

Revised mbio in school for 2 hours plus while waiting for jeremy and the rest to end mbio. Its some serious boring shit man... sheez.

Affected by bouts of sneezing the whole day its so darn irritating damn it. rubbing my nose till its red and hot. what a way to start the week.

Ah okae. lets do a little history on randalls life! 1 year ago! well 1 year ago at this time i'd prolly be hugging the damn computer addicted to "World Of Warcraft" with my secondary school friends or guild members raiding and stuff. Which probably explains my lack of energy in school and shitty grades. I used to enjoy the game so much... Raiding* which is playing with about 40 people online killing monsters and shit. talking thrash with people from all walks of life. And doing something fun with my secondary school friends... But afterawhile as the game progressed raiding became just too much of a chore and i got so sick of it. It no longer became a fun activity. It became an activity that i had to do. a responsiblity in a sense. So i stopped playing the game...

The expansions coming out, and im still considering whether to join my old friends back in the game. Haha. Though i think Im already past that addiction phase. Maybe i'd log on once in awhile and chat with the old peeps. Ive retired the rogue already, not gonna play it anymore...got sick of it. though ive spent alot of effort in it... sigh...

So to all the old guild members and my secondary school friends adios and good luck in ur future wow life. Maybe i'll see you all in burning crusade.---Azephinx--- Aze --- kim mo ---- luan dao--- and all the other names u guys were used to calling me... ^^

The pic above was a screen shot of the game. Back when i was still quite new to it and enjoying it alot. Playing with my real life friends Brent, Ken, Cw, and mal. Im that near invisible character in the middle with a chatbox above my head. memories....

damn spending my sunday afternoon doing Bpharm and DDCT project. sigh... woke up pretty late today cause of mahjong,poker and blackjack yesterday... thank god i broke even... phew.
life aint as carefree as it was before, but thats the price we pay for growing up...

lets see another week has gone by, got back my results. not satisfactory gotta work harder for this term. Had a high week of gambling won about 80 dollars, all from poker! haha. mind games and shit is my game. yea saturday is here,wonder whats gonna happen tonight.

what a day, woke up real early around 530 and decided to go to school early...
So took back DDCT, Bpharm and heard about my csas results. i wouldnt say they're, but they're below my expectations... gonna try harder this term! Csas lesson was such a bore... teacher just kept droning on and on about interview skills blah blah blah. Couldnt wait for lessons to end.
Since jeremy didnt have his car, we took dezz's car instead. me and jem decided to go for some fun at desmonds house! lol. in the car, we played blackjack with yongyang being the banker! That fella won 7 bucks in 5 mins! then he left.... easy money....
Played a lil playstation till everyone got sick of it then we moved on the POKER!
I think poker's totally my game. Ended the day 40 dollars richer! *evil laughter*
Everything went kinda well for me today! hope this doesnt mean tomorrow will suck.
*cross fingers*

6 hours break tmr. so gonna die of boredom...

Give me some time to find my own redemption....
then the new year can really begin.

For her:
thanks for your note,
I'm glad that i made an impact in your life,
I've thought about us everyday,
especially the nights on the balcony in vietnam,
i'd think of the things that we'd do,
the things that we did to make each other smile,
the emotions really hit hard yesterday at 12,
but i've thought about it many times,
and i've decided to let everything go,
its not easy
im still learning how,
and it hurts like hell,
but through it all i still wanna thank you,
for loving me.

you're not the only one wishing things could be different..

A new year, a fresh start....
So yesterday we met up for fireworks at cityhall. So damn crowded... abandoned cityhall for bedok jetty, and ended up watching flares shot by ships at 12 instead of fireworks. went to bedok 85 for supper, ended up drinking sugarcane and watching people eat! haha. Went over to brent's party after walking maine home. Reached the party with more then half the party drunk on the floor. The majority of the sober ones wanted to go back to cityhall and play lan at irc. didnt like the idea so i hung around abit more... then joined the mini gathering at ains house... We talked quite abit about the past year the ups and downs that we each faced.
Xuefang said ive changed since i came back from vietnam... must be too much emo-ing there! esp on xmas. Cabbed back home with xf after that and almost fell asleep in the bath.
Well thats basically how i spent my new year... heres wishing everyone an excellent year ahead!

And i dont want the world to see me, cause i dont think that they'd understand...